So, this album brings back a lot of different memories for me for all sorts of reasons. And well, this song just popped on and it brought back one particular one that I just feel inclined to share -becasue it’s been bothering me for quite sometime (since the moment it happened, over five years ago)
Anyway, this girl and I used to be best friends, and then we weren’t because we were two different people and it was just bound to happen. She was always in this relationship and in love yadda yadda and I (much like I still am today) have always just sauntered my way through romance and just enjoyed what I could. Well, one day we were listening to this album and this song came on and she just goes “this song is you, your heart is an empty room.” and at first I laughed it off and almost took it as a compliment (i had some sort of sick pride in being known as heartless when it came to things that should be sentimental and meaningful). But after we stopped being friends, I remember the song came on and I instantly remembered her saying that and I sat and listened to the lyrics and just thought….huh
and THIS has been bothering me for -like i said-over five years now. So i was just sitting, listening to the lyrics again and…what just irks me the most is that now she’s freaking married and having just the most wonderful time with her settled life, and I’m continuing on this waif like journey to “find myself” with this heart that’s an “empty room” because I still do have that cold sentiment towards relationships -with anyone- and it just makes me kind of sad and wonder if I’ll ever be able to change.
and that’s all i needed to say about that.